so i always think about posting and what i want to say in my head, bu then when i sit down it is as if my brain has already processed the information and no longer holds it in. this being the case, my posts are never as good as i originally want them to be. most of the time they are not even about the intended topic. so there you have it: my confession that in only three posts i have managed to be unhappy with my blog. i started this page because i am a walking contradiction. i wanted to be able to write out how i feel with the ability to look and analyze my crazy nature. hopefully i will succeed and be able to learn more about who i am (plus my therapist said i should write it out). So here goes! check back in and see if i have lived up to my goals for this blog (high expectations i know, but one day at a time).